Weigh In 1/19/09

My weigh in today was a good one. Not as good as last week, but I will still take it. I am down to 273.2, so I lost 1.6 lbs. I flipped around and around on what my diet plan was going to be. I finally did decide to go ahead and journal calories, but I didn't do that this weekend. I think that stopped me from losing as much as I could have. Will have to make sure I journal, no matter how ugly it is. This weeks goal is to journal journal journal!

Will She Make Up Her Mind?

I am so indecisive. I do know that I need to journal, which I am going to do, but I find that I get too messed up when I concentrate on calories rather than listening to my body. The day that I listened to my body, I did great with my eating. Yesterday when I counted calories, I did great with my calories until it came to after dinner and then I just went on a munch fest. I wasn't hungry, just tired and should have gone to bed. Instead I was up munching and talking to Gene. I am going to continue to journal EVERYTHING that I put in my mouth, but not worry about calories. I am also going to work on my nighttime eating. Hopefully this will make me successful. It is what worked for me when I lost my first 30 lbs. I just quit doing it, so the weight didn't continue to go off.

Happy Hump Day Everyone!

As is typical of me, I have changed my mind once again on how I am going to get through this life changing journey. I decided that I do need to go ahead and journal my food and keep track of calories so that I can open my eyes to what I am putting in my mouth.

I was proud of myself today though. We now have an hour for lunch (we used to have only 45 minutes). Before I ate my Lean Cuisine, I took a walk around the block. This was on top of the workout I did with the Wii Fit this morning. Weather permitting, I am going to start making this a regular routine. I don't need an hour to eat, so rather than sitting around reading, I might as well get my butt out and walk!

Weigh In 1/12/09

Well, I survived the first week. I exercised with the Wii Fit 5 days. That resulted in a weight loss, so I am very happy. My weigh in this week was 274.8, so I lost 4.6 lbs. I am sure part of that is water weight, but I will still take it.

Now, we shall see how this week goes with my new plan of action. I hope that it works as I can't see myself living the rest of my life counting calories once this adventure is done, but I can see myself listening to my body and doing well. Now, let's put it to the test!

I was informed by one of my followers, my sister, that she didn't find my posts borring, so if I have anything of interest to talk about, I will go ahead and post, but at the least, I will be posting once per week.

Thanks everyone for your support. It is very much appreciated.

Tomorrow is my first week weigh in. A little nervous to see it even though I did well with my calories this week. I have decided that for the first time in my adult life, I am going to try to learn how to listen to my body. I am going to concentrate on eating when I am hungry, not when the clock tells me to or because I think I should have some dessert, even if I am stuffed, as is usually the case. I will continue to journal what I eat, but I am not going to count calories as I am finding that I am stressing about if I have the correct serving for the calories. I lost weight before by listening to my body, but I did not continue to do that. This time I have to do that and I think listening to my body is a plan I can live with for the rest of my life.

Let's see how that weigh in goes tomorrow!

Started the day on the Wii Fit again. This time I used the game from Jillian from the Biggest Loser. She pretty well kicked my butt. A good workout and still had fun. Did well with my eating today. I ended up being 572 calories below my max calories. The weekend will be the hardest part for me, but I am going to do it.

I don't think I am going to post every day. That is liable to get a big long and borring. Since my weigh in day is Monday, I will post on Mondays.

I am so glad it is Wednesday. Friday just can't get here fast enough. I am exhausted. I was good at used the Wii Fit again this morning for the 3rd day in a row. Yeah for me! It is the only time that I have been able to say I have exercised and had fun at it. It is the best Xmas gift we have ever gotten. I did well with my eating. I was craving sugar tonight, so I had a bowl of cereal rather than reaching for my daughter's candy. I ended up 300 calories below my max calories, so I am very excited about that.

Well this was a rather rough day as we were woken up at 1:00 this morning with our daughter complaining that her bed was wet. Low and behold, the roof in her room was leaking right onto her bed. Poor thing. It took forever for me to get back to sleep, so I was dragging this morning. I really wanted to go by Starbucks this morning, but wasn't sure how my calories for the day would be, so I waited for lunch. Had that and a muffin for lunch, not healthy, but got me through the day and I ended up 35 calories below my max. Need to work on eating healthier, but for now, if I can stay below my calorie max, I will be happy.

I am going to try and post every night on how my day went. I was able to save enough calories through the day, so that I was able to have a Peanut Buster Parfait tonight, but I think I need to work on spreading my calories out over the day. I was starving and very grumpy by the time I got home tonight, not a good thing. I was able to stay below my max calorie allotment by about 100, so i feel good about that.

Well, had my starting weigh in today. Not as good as I had hoped. I way overindulged over the last 2 months, but this just shows that I need to really pay attention to what I eat. I weighed in at 279.4! Not going to let it get me down though.

In the beginning

I hate to admit my weight to anyone, but I have decided that in order to lose this weight I have to be true to myself and the world. Maybe this way, I will be motivated enough to get down to where I want to be, which at this time, I don't know where that is as I am taking baby steps.

It all began at the beginning of 2005. I had been trying to lose weight up to that point, but had pretty much been unsuccessful. I found myself in Florida, 3,000 miles from family and friends and at my highest weight ever, 310. I always kidded myself that my height hid my weight, but at that weight, everyone knows you are fat. By September 2005, I lost 30 lbs with just listening to what my body wanted to eat and when. I maintained that weight, for the most part, for 3 years.

Along comes August 2008. I ended up having a nervous breakdown, being hospitalized and being diagnosed with bi-polar. This started yet another weight loss attempt. The medicine I was given has been shown to cause weight gain and I pictured myself back up at 310 in no time, so I began journaling and watching my calories. This got me down to 265, which I had seen for about 5 seconds right after the birth of my daughter in 2000.

Unfortunately, the holidays came and a bout of depression, so I have put on some weight. I am not sure how much, but I know it is a few. My plan is to go back to journaling and watching my calories again on Monday, January 5th, at which time I will also face the dreaded scale again.

This time I also plan on incorporating exercise into my plan, which I haven't really done in the past. We got a Wii Fit for XMas and Gene bought a game for it developed by Jillian from the Biggest Loser. I am a bit afraid of trying it, but I know that I need to do it as I am tired of being this size.

I invite you to join me in my journey as I can use as many cheerleaders as possible. I know it will be a long journey, but as I have heard over and over, it didn't come on over night, so I can't expect it to come off over night either.